Dreams and nightmares

Had a dream tonight that woke me up at 1:38 am.  It was an awful dream where the man that I love was with another woman and he lied to me. I dreamed that I ran into him in a bar and he said we were back together and then I followed him outside and he was getting into a car with the girl that I had been talking to all night in my dream. I was asking the girl why she lied to me, I don't even remember what she lied about. I turned to say something to him and it freaked me out so bad that it woke me up. After waking up I realized he was really gone and never coming back. I just started crying, not just a few tears either. Full on, gut-wrenching crying. I think the reality of him not being here was so real at that moment that it was just too much. You would think that after over two years that I would have some sense of peace but I fear I have a long, long way to go. I don't understand the dream either. He was one of the most honest and loyal people I have ever known.

Had a much needed break from reality. One day road trip to Des Moines, IA. Went to watch Pro Bull Riding. That was fun. Stopped and got something to eat at a place called Buzzard Billy's. For some reason that my cousin and I still haven't figured out, they cut our bill in half. The only thing I remember even being wrong was they forgot to bring our nachos out before our food. Thank you Buzzard Billy's.

Sunday Funday ensued. We stopped at an outdoor Irish pub that was literally a tent set up in the middle of downtown. We met 3 guys who seemed very nice and had a few drinks with them. Found out one of them was a cocaine dealer from Davenport. Really?, how do I find these people. From there we checked out a couple of other places but they were mostly more restaurant type places that we didn't even bother to order a drink at. Then we found a really interesting place almost by accident. I don't even recall seeing a sign with the name of the place on it. Several people were standing on the staircase smoking their cigarettes. The staircase led down to basically a basement with just a small bar in the corner of a small room. I quickly grew to love this place. The people were very friendly and an interesting mix of characters. I had a great time talking and laughing. They were awesome. There was this 7 ft. tall guy who reminded me very much of an old friend and who immediately came and talked with us. He sat with us the majority of the night and introduced us to just about everybody who came through the door. I could not tell you one of these people's name but they were great and treated us like old friends.

Went back to the hotel around 11:30, had a piece of pizza and went to bed. The next morning we got up and went down to the hotel restaurant for breakfast. They had a small but wonderful buffet. Our waiter was from India and was a complete character. He would just come up out of the blue and tell a random story and run off. He was hilarious. He brought us a berry smoothie shot with a "rumour" of vodka in it. Not a "scandal" just a "rumor". Subbu you are the man! After breakfast we just packed up and headed home. Not bad for a 24 hr. vacation.

This will be my first shot at this blogging thing. I have no particular agenda. I just thought I would share  random moments that I experience. Somebody told me along time ago that I should do this, I am a huge procrastinator.

I guess I am suppose to introduce myself. I am a 44 year old woman. Never been married. Two grown daughters and a brand new grandson. I work a couple of jobs and make ends meet. I like to travel when possible. Currently I am attempting to live a healthier lifestyle. It seems to be agreeing with me so far. That's all I got for now.

So I came across this picture today in my computer. I know who I saved it for, just don't remember the particular reason I saved it.  

Hopefully someday that memory will return to me. I bet it was a good one. That will be a story for a later date. I don't know if I have the energy required to tell that story right now or if I ever will for that matter. Time will tell.